hunker down and mend, this will not be ignored

“I’m pushing an elephant up the stairs
I’m tossing up punch lines that were never there
Over my shoulder a piano falls
Crashing to the ground

I’m breaking through
I’m bending spoons
I’m keeping flowers in full bloom
I’m looking for answers from the great beyond”

http://www.npr.org/2011/09/22/140694858/rem-calls-its-quits-after-3-decades-of-making-music

A full flower garden front yard

Home Ownership

Publish a Children’s book

Successfully fund something with a grant I’ve written

Get a Masters in Social Work. and then make everyone call me Master. 

Pauly Shore is a genius.

I haven’t remembered my dreams in..well I can’t remember, but a long time. This week I’ve recalled a few, So it makes me happy to know that I still have an imagination in my sleep and can dream clever dreams. The best was that Billie O’neal was my brother in law instead of Alex and it had a very Son in Law premise. You can imagine.

I bought a meditation CD at borders before it closed that I like to play to and from work in the car sometimes. I’ve been feeling a lot anxiety lately and it helps more than anything else I’ve tried. My favorite exercises are the mindfulness track where you concentrate on your feelings, completely accepting them and feeling them. (this is sometimes overwhelming. I should probably not be operating a motor vehicle when I do this one!)The loving kindness track. It has this mantra you offer to yourself and then others “May I be safe, be happy, be healthy, live with ease.” And then you say it for someone dear to you and also someone thats “actions or words are difficult for you” and all beings and so on. And also the regs exercise where you only concentrate on breath is essential. 

This dude made my day. That and the beer garden. I was in such a good mood in the middle of it I told Nick. “I love it here. I don’t want to move.” I’m sober now and I don’t know if I want to move or not, but it was a nice day and so sunny. A September Sun in Michigan is so pleasing. Not overbearing. After day drinking too many beers we went to Nick’s Parents and tried to act pretty sober while we ate dinner and played games. They gave me a children’s book about The Heidelberg project written by a Social Worker for my birthday, which is probably the most adorably thoughtful gift ever! It is also serendipitous, since I woke up and wrote a rough draft of my first children’s book this week. More about that latter…..(Click the photo for an explanation of the Heidelberg project)